Friday, December 28, 2012

Happy Birthday BFF!!!

I have known Jaimee since the 1st grade. I was even the one who cut her son's umbilical cord way back in the day! And our birthday's are exactly 1 month apart, so a sure sign of BFF status, lol!

Anyways, we went out for teppanyaki and everyone got to meet her new "guy friend". Anthony and Scott were also there, along with my sister and brother in law (bil), Tracy and Josh. This night was almost an exact copy of my birthday dinner!

We decided to do some sake bombs, which I haven't done since 2009! I was telling Jaimee and her friend, "Q" how to set it up. Scott was all set to take the picture but somehow they just couldn't get it set up. Scott was getting impatient, and when I was saying "Sake" to Jaimee, Scott yells "BOMB!" and hits the table!

My sake cup falls off the chopsticks and hits the rim of the beer glass as it's going inside and breaks the glass! I'm all ready to chug, but everyone is yelling at me because of the broken glass. Then it was determined that it was a clean break, and then I was allowed to drink it!


 
Our teppanyaki cook was pretty young, and Scott and Anthony didn't hold anything back! The cook was asking if everyone were in 2's for the bill, and Scott pipes in, "Well, we can make it 3 if you'd like!"

During dinner, Anthony asks, "So how did your birthday gift go?" Scott immediately smacks him on his arm, and he just responds with "What?"

I just told him that the medication didn't work and that it was cancelled, and continued with dinner. So nothing too horrible!

We had a great night! We did decide in the parking lot that we're going to be doing a road trip in February to Vegas!!!

Happy 30th Birthday Jaimee!!!
 
BFF's for life!
 
My boys, Scott and Anthony
 
Jaimee, Tracy, and me

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Oh Costco

Today is CD35. I called my RE's office so that they could call in my prescription for the birth control. I called the office at 10:20am because I knew that Costco didn't open until 10am.

I waited until 2pm to go to Costco. I did all my shopping and then went to the pharmacy. I gave him my name and birth date, and then he tells me that it's not ready and it'll be ANOTHER 45 minutes!!!

I asked him why it wasn't filled since my RE called it in around 10:30am. He says that since they weren't sure when I would be in to pick it up, they didn't fill it.

Umm, WHAT???!!!
 
I then had to go and check-out and brought all my stuff to my car. Looked at my watch, and about 20 minutes had past. So I just sit on the bench for the last 25 minutes. Do you think that I could get a hold of anyone on the phone? Nope, nobody. So there I am, just sitting there.
 
After about 10 minutes, I couldn't take it anymore. I went up to a different person and asked if it was ready yet. She told me to hold on. She went to the back and came back with it. I asked her if it was their policy to not fill a prescription until the person was there to pick it up. She pretty much said yes and then added, "We've been really busy today".
 
So the moral of this story is to "check in" at the pharmacy so they get started on filling your prescription and BEFORE you do your shopping.
 
All for this!
 


Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas!

 
I was able to talk Justin into letting me stay at my mom's and doing Christmas morning with the kids, so I felt a little guilty, but I told him that I would be home before he woke up and he was okay with it.
 
Christmas was a blast! I stayed up until 2am getting everything ready with my mom (she called it a night at 12am though). I found a really cute thing on Pinterest about hanging up streamers on the doors and watching the kids run through it in the morning.
 
I had my 13yr old brother help me put the streamers up where the Christmas presents were. And then we went to bed. I was lying there fully awake and then thought that I should put the streamers up and their bedroom doors too. I even put it up on my brother's door too!
 
 

 
I set my alarm clock for 5am since I didn't know what time the little ones (2- 6yrs old, and a 4yr old). Nope, they decided to sleep in to 7am. So there I am, like a little kid too excited to go back to sleep. I just made myself a cup of hot cocoa and waited.
 
L got up first, and I told him to go wake up everyone else. You didn't have to ask him twice!
 
 
Everyone seemed a little confused about the streamers, lol. But I told them to just run through it!
 
 
By this time, everyone was awake and ready to open presents!
 
 
Everything went perfect! And the kids, even the 13yr old had a blast!
 
On the way home, I stopped at Denny's to pick up breakfast for me and Justin. After eating, we did our Christmas. He was soo excited that I got him the wireless Sony headset for his PS3 and two games!
 
I got a $150 giftcard to Amazon and I was able to buy a glass bowl, beater head, and a mixer head for my Kitchen Aid stand mixer (somehow they got lost in the move, I'm hoping that they got packed away and they're in storage. Couldn't hurt to have double everything!)
 
I hope that everyone had a great Christmas!!!




Sunday, December 23, 2012

Almost Made It

First off, let me say that I'm okay around babies and kids. What I'm not okay with is pregnant people. I thought about all of our holiday plans and I thought I was in the clear. Nope, not even close.

My sister had her annual Christmas Open House today. Everything was going fine until my brother in law's sister showed up. I knew that she had a toddler but what I did NOT know was that she was almost 9 months pregnant!

I avoided her at all costs after we hugged hello, and after she made the stupid comment of "Have you always been this short?"

She was such a gem the entire time too. My mom was trying to talk to her and she acted completely uninterested and gave short answers. Even my mom gave up trying to talk to her!

Anyways, I just had to realize that I was able to drink my yummy bubble gum vodka and sprite, so that made things somewhat better.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Stupid PA

I called to schedule an appointment with my PCP about getting tested for Cushings. He wasn't available but the Physician's Assistant, Sandra (the witch) was.

After the usual weight, BP, and temp check, the MA brought me to the room and started asking why I was there. I told her everything from the beginning. At my doctor's office they do everything on a laptop, so the MA just puts down that I'm there for a "Pre-Diabetic check".

She pricks my finger and fills up two of those little glass straw looking things. She also makes the comment that I'm on way more than the 81mg baby aspirin because I kept bleeding. Umm, no you stupid bish. I think that I would know what I take and don't need any lip from you.

Anyways, the witch comes in and looks at the notes on the laptop. She then says that from my weight I "must be eating a lot of fast food". At this time, I'm starting to get mad. My blood tests then come back, and my cholesterol is a tad high. She does say that my diabetes test came back at 4.9, which is good. I ask her if this means if I'm still pre-diabetic (what my OB said). She then goes on to draw a diagram and then talk to me like I'm stupid and can't understand what she is saying. At this point, I'm literally rolling my eyes at her.

So after she gets done giving me a lesson that 4.9 is less than 6.5, she starts to get up and pack up the laptop. I then said that I was there to get tested for Cushing's, which the bish of the MA never put in the notes. She stops and says what makes me think that I need that test since a person would need to be exposed to steroids. I flat out told her that I am exposed EVERY SINGLE MONTH!

She grabs a lab sheet, and literally scribbles on it and hands it to me, and with that she left.

Do I even have to tell you that I hate this person???

So now I'm at Quest Diagnostics to get my labs done. I ask the lab tech (Julie) if I needed to do anything special before the test. She says that she doesn't know, she just does what the sheet tells her.

I call back the doctor's office and get Joanna. I tell her what's going on. She says that she'll have the witch call me back with better instructions. I tell Julie that I'm waiting for her to call me back so I sit and read a magazine. Forty minutes later, still no phone call, so I call back. I get Joanna again, and she gives me attitude. "I told you that she'll call you back but I didn't say that she'll call you back right away." I told her that I'm still at Quest and they are closing. She tells me to hold on and she's going to see if she can find the witch.

I'm on hold for a few minutes, and when she gets back on, the attitude continues. She tells me, "that whatever the lab slip says is right and that since I was already exposed to the steroids I wouldn't need to do a steroid suppression test". I told her that nothing was marked on the lab sheet, any of the boxes were not checked off. Joanna then told me that the labs were electronic and that the lab tech will know. So I said that the paper that I have in my hand is pointless?

Joanna then starts to speak to me in a really loud voice asking if the form that I have in my hand says Quest in the top left corner. I say yes. She then says, still talking really loudly, "Then yes, that is the form!"

At this point, I'm trying to hold back the tears. Why are they being so mean to me? I have questions that nobody is answering directly.

I walk back up to Julie and tell her what they told me, and I start crying. Julie then lets me in the back to talk so I'm not in front of the people that are still in the waiting room. She looks over my lab slip and she even says that it's not filled out right and she can't even read what the scribbles say on the bottom.

She tells me that she is going to call them back tomorrow and will personally call me and let me know what I need to do for the test. Finally, someone nice!

At about 5:45pm, the witch calls me back and leaves a voice message. She says that she talked to my actual doctor (Dr. W) and he says that I need to get referred out to an Endocrinologist, but due to the holidays I wouldn't be getting a phone call for at least 2 weeks.

Julie did call me back the next day and told me that all of the doctor's are out for the holidays, but she did get to speak with Joanna. I told Julie that they're sending me to an Endo and I'm going to be putting the test on hold until my appointment. She said that she'll file my lab order if I ever need it in the future.

After all of this, I can tell you that I will be looking for a different PCP!


Thursday, December 13, 2012

And Two Steps Back

I swear that my body has it out for me. I was super excited to go in to the RE for my second u/s (and shell out another $75) and what happens? My 16mm follie disappears on me! The 12mm follie did grow to 16mm, but it's still too small to trigger.

They did ask if I wanted to come back in on Monday for yet another u/s, but even the Nurse said that since I'm at CD 22 the likelihood of it growing anymore was slim to none. I told her that I would think about it. She did sit with me and went through my entire chart to see what's been going on.

After going through the chart, she said that the RE is going to review it and decide what the next step is. She thinks he's going to add a Bravelle injection to use either on the last day of the Femara or the next day, to give my follies a very much needed boost.

Now I have to wait (yet again) until CD 35 to pee on a stick and get the oh so familiar BFN before they will call in my prescription for birth control since the Provera doesn't seem to be working any more to start my period. So I think that I'm looking at at least January 13th 2013 for AF to start!

Why do you hate me body?????


Monday, December 10, 2012

CD19- RE appt

Not the best news but not the worst either. I have 2 follies that are measuring at a 12 and a 16 and my lining is at 6.9.

Hollie says that since I'm not "finished" growing yet, everything seems fine and wants me back in on Thursday for another u/s.

So even though that's another $75, there's still hope this cycle!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear little 16mm follie,

Please, please grow! I just need you to get to 18mm, that's only 2mm more! I know that you can do it! And you have 3 days! Please don't be like me and procrastinate! I just really want to turn you into a baby!

Love always,
Your future mom


Sunday, December 9, 2012

Today is CD18 and...

that means that tomorrow is CD 19 and my ultrasound! I am super excited to go and get my follies checked out! This is my first cycle on Femara, so I'm hoping that all is good in there! I have had a little bit of cramping but who knows what my body does anymore.

My appointment is at 10:30am, so knowing me, I'll be up at like, 7am because it's almost like Christmas! And if we get good news, it's IUI time baby!

And of course, I am putting the cart before horse, BUT if it does go well, and we get out little Christmas miracle, we'll be looking at an August due date and that is my Nana's birthday month, which if we have a girl, she'll be named after. I'm praying that this is a sign!

I seriously just want to go to bed now, so tomorrow can hurry up and get here!

 



Oh, RoboCat, lol
 


Thursday, December 6, 2012

My Birthday Dinner

For my dinner, I wanted ribs. I have been craving them for weeks, so we went to Famous Dave's. (Btw, their jalapeno mac and cheese is to die for).

So anyways, we're all sitting around the table: Justin, me, bff Jaimee, Mary Helen, Scott and Anthony. When we all get together it is a complete zoo! I haven't laughed that hard in such a long time, and we were definitely the loudest table there. Almost too loud, we thought that we were going to be asked to leave since it's a family restaurant and most of our conversation was at least an R-rating, if not worse. Oh well.

Scott then asks me, "What did you get for your birthday?" I just told him nothing. And the death glares start at Justin, so what does he say?

"Oh I got her an IUI."

I swear that the room stopped.

Scott then says, "Wait, you got her a UTI? What?!"

Everyone starts to laugh and then the questions come.

I am now turning a very bright shade of red. Everyone's looking at me, so I have to start explaining everything to them. These are my most close friends, but some things I just wanted to keep quiet.

And Justin did get an ear full on the way home. His excuse reasoning, was that he didn't want them to think that he didn't get me anything for my birthday. SMH

So I guess it's in the open now, but hopefully they forget, lol!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Dr. House, MD

I used to be addicted to this show a long time ago, but I stopped watching it right around the time he went into rehab. Anyways, I was watching a rerun of it late one night and the "story" was about a little overweight girl who had a heart attack. I won't go into detail but House figured out that she has a tumor on her pituitary gland or in other words, Cushing's.

So that got me thinking. I have similar "issues", minus the whole heart attack thing, and I went to the most reliable thing that I could, Dr. Google.

Oh dear God, I think that I have Cushing's now! Seriously, the symptoms mirror almost the exact same symptoms as PCOS.

The exact definition of Cushing's is:

Cushing's syndrome occurs when your body is exposed to high levels of the hormone cortisol for a long time. The most common cause of Cushing's syndrome, sometimes called hypercortisolism, is the use of oral corticosteroid medication. The condition can also occur when your body makes too much cortisol.

Symptoms:

Common signs and symptoms involve progressive obesity and skin changes, such as:
  • Weight gain and fatty tissue deposits, particularly around the midsection and upper back, in the face (moon face) and between the shoulders (buffalo hump)
  • Pink or purple stretch marks (striae) on the skin of the abdomen, thighs, breasts and arms
  • Thinning, fragile skin that bruises easily
  • Slow healing of cuts, insect bites and infections
  • Acne
Women with Cushing's syndrome may experience:
  • Thicker or more visible body and facial hair (hirsutism)
  • Irregular or absent menstrual periods

The reason why I think that I must have this disease is that when I was little, I was hospitalized quite a few times due to my asthma. Their medicine of choice? Steroids. I grew up on the stuff.

My mom even told me that the doctor even told her when I was 2 or 3 yrs old that all of this probably would make it hard for me to have kids of my own.

Sooo, what to do, what to do? I'm right in the middle of a medicated cycle, which of course includes Dexamethasone (a low dose STEROID!)

I will ask at my RE appt on Monday, Dec 10th about what they think about it.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Happy Birthday to me!

My birthday was good! Spent a little bit more time with my brother and sister in law before they had to head back home. And of course, the leftovers from Thanksgiving! Yummy!!!

I was able to get Justin to "help" me clean out my aquarium, which just means that he does it. We stayed at my mom's until about 6pm and then decided to head home. Justin was complaining that he was hungry but didn't want anymore leftovers (I swear, he's like a gremlin where he needs to be fed every 2 hours). So on our way we went.

While driving down the freeway, in the fast lane, the car started to shake really bad. I got scared and told him to pull over, thinking that we got a flat tire. I got out of the car with him, and checked the tires. All of the them were fine, but for some reason I grabbed the lug nut on the back passenger tire and noticed that it was loose! I checked all of them, and they were all loose but one. The reason why that one was not loose, was because it was NOT THERE! The entire stud broke off!

We called a tow truck and had to get towed the rest of the way home. The highlight of this? We actually got to ride in the car on the back of the tow truck since there was 3 of us and he didn't have room in his cab. It's was pretty cool, but very scary when you realize that you are higher in the air than the diesel trucks!

Long story short: the dealership where I just had my oil changed and my tires rotated got a very lovely call from me at 7:30am Monday morning. I told him that he needs to tow my car in and he tells me that they don't do that and he wants me to DRIVE it the 50 miles back to town. In the end, he sent two people to come pick up my car and then drop it off later.

They were very apologetic but then I start to think about all the things that could have happened! Since the tire rotation, I drove about 200 miles with my tire like that! What would have happened if the tire actually broke off the car, while on the freeway???? Super scary to even think about. I hope that because of this, they will learn to double check the things that they do.




 
My poor car :(
 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving!

And a Happy CD1 to me!!! Thank you sweet baby Jesus!

Today was spent with Justin's family. It was fun spending time with them since we don't get to see them that often. The food was good and of course, all day football.

While the boys were watching football, I had to finish baking all the cupcakes for our Thanksgiving 2.0 that we were having at my mom's the next day.

Ahhh, the cupcakes. Where do I start on those? I finished making the Limoncello ones and I still had to make the Twinkie ones. The actual cupcakes came out perfect, it was the filling that I had a problem with. I knew that I had marshmallow fluff, but what I didn't know was that that stuff EXPIRES!

Well, I was lazy and decided to use it. BIG MISTAKE! It was all oily and ooz-y. So I had to scrap those. What a waste of time and effort!

The cupcakes for the kids, well those, were all kinds of special! They had a lot of fun making them (and a mess). And now some pics of the "Minion Cupcakes"!



Twinkie cupcakes 2.0 is in the making...

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

One of the many reasons I love my husband

Last night we were catching up on Weeds (we were like 6 years late for this show, and thanks to Netflix we had to watch all of the seasons in under a week, lol).

Anyways, we were having some snacks, Cutie oranges and mini pretzel twists. I see Justin biting off certain areas of his little pretzel. He then holds it up and says, "Look, it's your cervix!"

I almost choked. I don't think that he even knows what a cervix really looks like but he gets an "A" for trying, and of course for just being super sexy!

And for your viewing pleasure...

Apparently this is what my cervix looks like according to my husband
 
Then immaturity ensues, lol

Sunday, November 18, 2012

CD 73 and...

I took my last birth control pill!!!! Now onto to another, hopefully shorter wait for AF to show. Way back in the day when I was on BC, it took about 3 days after my last pill to start, so that's what I'm wishing for.

But in the mean time, I finished all of our Christmas shopping and while grocery shopping for my much needed baking supplies, I found my favorite oranges!!! I swear I could eat all of them, lol

Dangerously addicting

I'm getting super excited for Thanksgiving though. I'm planning on making- Limoncello cupcakes: lemon cupcakes with a lemon curd filling and a lemon buttercream frosting,  Twinkies cupcakes, and  fun Minion cupcakes to decorate with the kids at my mom's house. I got a lot of baking to do on Wednesday!!!





 All of these look so yummy!!! I'll keep you posted on how everything turns out. I'll try to remember to take some pictures too!

Friday, November 16, 2012

Break-through Bleeding

That's what I got. When I finally got a hold of my RE's office (the same one that said to call when I had any kind of bleeding), that's what they told me and to continue taking the birth control pills. After today's pill, only 2 more to go!

I haven't been on birth control for over 2 years, but I'm hoping that my body will respond the same way, and start AF three days after the last pill. I'm not holding my breath though, since my body likes to screw me over, lol.

I was able to get my protocol for my next cycle. 5mg Femara (Letrozole), .5mg Dexamethazone (low dose steroid), and of course my hCG trigger shot.

I have heard that women with PCOS respond much better to Femara then Clomid (I only responded 2 out of the 4 times that I took it). I want to add injections with it, but I'm thinking that maybe I'll just do my "standard" protocol and if it's not where it's supposed to be at, then add the injects for the next cycle.

I think that I have Justin on my side to do an IUI this cycle!!! Yayyy!!! Fingers crossed that by this time next week, I'll have my period!  (What a birthday present to wish for!)

And now some funnies...


 
You're welcome :)

Friday, November 9, 2012

Spotting???

Today is CD 64 and day 5 of birth control, but maybe there's a light at the end of this long ass tunnel!

When I went to the bathroom this morning after getting up, there was the smallest spot on my underwear. I don't think that I have ever been so exciting to see something!

Since getting up this morning, I have been back to the bathroom twice, praying the the lightest of all colors is getting darker or just more in quantity. I really want to call my RE and let them know that I in fact, have started spotting!

But as of right now, I think that I would feel stupid to call and nothing else happens, so once again I sit and wait and wait and wait...

This girl makes going to the bathroom look hot, lol
 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

CD 61 :(

Woe is me. Today marks day number 15 since my last Provera pill. I called my RE this past Thursday to let them know I haven't started yet and the solution they came up with is to take Birth Control pills for 14 days. So by my calculations, I can probably count out November for any kind of treatment.

Justin and I are kind of butting heads when it comes to doing the IUI. I want it done as soon as possible, but he wants to wait until we buy a house, which won't be for another 6 months or so. I keep trying to use "But it can be my birthday present" antic but I'm not too sure it's working.

Next I'll be trying the "It can be my Christmas present!"

It's official. This is me :(

Friday, October 19, 2012

A Visitor and a Birthday Party

Not the AF kind of visitor, but my lovely friend S who came all the way from Denmark!!! She is one of my internet friends that I have been talking to since March. We all "met" on an online forum and we branched out to form our own little group (there's a total of 5 of us).

S was in town to see some friends up north and then a friend in the city right next to where my mom lives! So of course I had to drive into town and meet up!

I do have to say, it was a bit scary, but I was so glad that I did it. S is the most sweetest girl evah! We hung out all day! We had lunch at Chipotle, walked around the mall, went and got Cold Stone ice cream, and went shopping at Target.

Friday was also my little brother's 6th birthday and my mom was having pizza and cake later on during the day, so after our Target adventure, we went to my mom's.

I am so glad that we were able to meet! I am now on a mission to meet up with the other ladies before my flight benefits end, which is going to be kind of hard, since I only have about 5 weeks left!

S had a wonderful idea about all 5 of us doing a "Girl's Trip", where everyone can meet all together! That would be so much fun if we can get it to happen!

Me and S at my mom's

My little bro getting embarrassed when we were singing to him!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Destination: Horndog City

Well, this came out of left field. I was on Provera once before and had no side effects. This time however, I can not get enough...

Translation: I wanted to jump my husband's bones, all. the. time. Like I was ready for Round 2 just as soon as Round 1 ended, lol!

After the third  straight day, he told me that he needed a break, lol. I joked that it seems like I'm the guy now in the relationship!

But holy hell, the urges!!!

I feel (slightly) bad for him since he works all day and I do nothing blog, cook, and clean all day at home.

But when a girl wants it, she needs to have it!




P.S.- Searching for a pic this time was challenging. Not too many PG pics when you search for "begging" LOL

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Didn't fall for it

Well, here it is, CD36 and the stupid bish never showed. I guess she figured out that I was trying to trick her, and instead she was all like, "Look at her trying to be cute, I'm going to show her who's boss, and take a little vacation..."

Anyways, here's to being back on Provera...


LOLZ

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Weezer!!!

I am such a nerd. I love, love Weezer! And guess who was added to the Fair's concert series???

WEEZER!!!!



Oh my god! Their last album was my life's soundtrack for the last few years. This is one of the bands that was definitely on my concerts bucket list, so I had to go and see them!

I had to drag my friend, Jaimee (okay, well not drag, but I knew that this was not her kind of music) to the fair. We had to get there early to get in to the general admission section (the price for two tickets was about $94 for decent seats and even though that I really, really wanted to see them, $94 bucks was a bit steep to pay for a FAIR concert. If it was at the SM Center, then hells yeah I would have paid it)

All in all, it was a great concert!!!

Here's a few pics!


 
 
Best. Night. Ever.


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Trying to Trick my body

Today is CD33, and I still have not started AF. Where the hell is she???

In the past, it seemed to me that good ol' AF likes to trick me into thinking that maybe, just maybe by some impossible way that I'll get my BFP. She usually likes to wait until after I take a HPT, get a negative result, and then show up, adding more salt to the wound.

I figured that I would try to trick her this time.  Yesterday morning, I peed in my cup and dipped an OPK because I have more of those lying around. Nope, nothing happened. Negative result (duh) and still no AF.

So this morning, I figured that I would use an HPT. Dipped the strip in and got the - (no real surprise there) and now we wait for AF.

If AF still has not shown up by tomorrow, back on Provera I go :(

Hopefully it won't be THAT long!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

CD28-Nothing New

Still doing the waiting game with AF. Temp went up **slightly** and then dipped back down. Oh well, couldn't hurt to try for my Hail Mary.

I think that I decided, instead of waiting after another 3 rounds of the Femara protocol before we got more invasive, is to just jump in on the first round. I feel like I might be wasting some precious time. Not too sure yet. I tried talking to Justin about it because we would be out of pocket (OOP), stupid insurance only wanting to pay for only testing, and he could only say, "I can't miss any work, go to sleep."

I need to call my RE's office to ask about it, but I am so deathly afraid to. I think that I'm mostly afraid of the price that I am going to get quoted.

**An Update, within an update***

Someone put her big girl panties on, and called the RE's office. Drumroll please: $335 for the IUI!!! Not too horrific! She even said that we can do it this next cycle, just to call when I start my period and then go in for an ultrasound and get some more info.

::Happy Dance::

But still nervous as hell. Where in the hell is my period? I want to get this show on the road!!!

This is how I feel right now. No, not like a dog, but like "What?!"

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Damn you Sour Patch Kids

We love all things sour in my household, so when I found a 3.5 lb bag of SPK, I thought, "Hey, why not?"

I swear that these things are going to be the death of me. I fill up a snack size ziplock bag, and I only eat one color at a time: Green, Yellow, Orange, and Red for last (it's my favorite!) The bag will last me all day.

I feel like crap after eating them, I swear them off, then I feel better by the next day. So what do I do? I eat more of course! Thinking, "No, that's not what upset my stomach".

News Alert: Yep it's definitely those pesky SPK causing all kinds of tummy trouble. Not running to the bathroom kind of trouble, just I feel like shit and don't want to move, I feel like blah, kind of trouble.

So note to self: NO MORE SOUR PATCH KIDS....EVER!

SPK is shooting me up from the inside

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Holy HUGE temp drop

I had a HUGE temp drop this morning, so it's not looking too good :(. I know that I am definitely over-analyzing this cycle, but hey, what is there else to do, right?

Hoping that my temp goes back up in the morning!


Monday, October 1, 2012

Things that make you go "Hmmmm"



So I'm just sitting here, literally going out of my mind looking at my chart. Even though, Holly said that it was almost impossible for me to know for sure if the +OPK really meant ovulation, I keep analyzing this thing.

Okay, so I got the +OPK  at 8:30pm on CD15. Fertility Friend says that a person can expect to ovulate within the next 24-36 hours. If I did ovulate on CD17 (please, please, please), I would more than likely have a temperature dip on CD 18, which I did! See how I'm going nuts here?

If that's the case, as of today I would be 8 dpo. Since I know that this cycle is pretty much a "Hail Mary", I'm going to wait until the weekend to test.

My main symptom that I get is extremely sore boobies and nips before AF, and I've got nothing...yet.

If I don't get my BFP this cycle, all I want is for my body to work the way it should and start AF on my own. That would at least prove to me that it has finally gotten the wake up call!

Monday, September 24, 2012

CD 18

I had my follow up ultrasound today. The little 11mm follie did grow, but only to 15mm and then flatlined. I wasn't that sad about the outcome because I knew it was pretty much impossible for it to grow 7mm in just a few days.

I did ask about the +OPK I got on CD15. She said that since I have/had irregular cycles along with the PCOS, my body has LH surges throughout the day and I just happened to catch a spike. She did ask if we humped it out, and I told her that we did, because you never know :)

My next cycle they are switching me from the Clomid to Femara, along with the hCG trigger. I think that I'll try this way for 3 months and if nothing happens, I want to get more invasive, maybe start IUI's with injects. But only time will tell...

Isn't this the truth?


Sunday, September 23, 2012

CD17

I just realized that I have my follow up ultrasound in the morning! I don't have a "feeling" about how the appointment will go but I'm kind of excited. I've been having some slight cramps going on, so I'm hoping that means that my little follies are growing in there!

I also decided to start taking my basal body temperature (BBT) in the morning. I used to temp everyday but my temps were all over the place. When I showed my charts to my RE, he told I was just wasting my time because of the PCOS. But I'm starting to think that my body is actually working the way that it's supposed to and that my temps now, will be more consistent.

I could kick myself because I thought about starting at the beginning of this cycle but I forgot :( If I did remember, maybe I would know for a fact if the +OPK that I got the other day, was really because I was ovulating or not. Oh well, can't dwell on the past, can we?


What I feel like right now, lol

Friday, September 21, 2012

What?!?!

I went to a funeral today for my mom's friend's brother. I haven't seen many of these people in years, and of course the "Do you have any kids yet?" and the "When are you going to have a baby?" questions came. I just put on a happy face and smiled through my "Oh not yet" reponses.

During the service and the reception, I kept feeling a throbbing pain in my lower back on my right side. I took an aspirin and didn't think too much of it. When I got home, I decided to use one of my many OPK's (ovualtion prediction kit). I have never, ever gotten a positive on one but I thought I would give it a whirl.

I dipped the stick in the ol' cup of pee, put it down, waited for about 3 minutes and checked it out. It was POSITIVE! I thought my eyes were playing tricks in me, so I dipped another 2 tests in. Same results.

Sooo, the question is now, is it a false positive because of me having PCOS (people with PCOS are known for getting positives of OPK's throughout their entire cycle). And if it really is a true positive, with my small follie sizes, would I truly ovualte or is my body just gearing up for no reason?

 But for whatever reason, just seeing the positives, it makes me feel happy, like my body is trying to do something. We'll definitely be humping it out either way!

Three POSITIVE opk's :)