My OB Rocks!

I have been pushing back my annual appointment for about 3 months and I finally didn't have an excuse this time to cancel it. I cancelled last time because I thought that the appt would fall a few days after I had my IUI but we all know how that ended.

Anyways, before the actual procedure, Joy sat down and went thoroughly through my chart. I ended up telling her the nightmare that I went through at my PCP's appt last month. She was not happy about how they treated me. She told me that if I wanted to get tested for Cushing's that she would give me the lab slip for it. Her and the MA went through the book of codes trying to figure out what tests to order.

While, the MA was looking up the codes, I told them about my experience at the RE. She wasn't really happy about that either. I told her that they have never sent me out for blood work and the last blood work that was done was for her in my dx for PCOS in November 2011!

She asked me if I feel like I know more than what they did, since it seems like I do my research and I told her yes. She did tell me that if I ever wanted to see someone else she will give me the info and the referral! But this place is about a 3 hour drive each way, but we'll see!

And during my pap, they were telling me that since I have a PPO, the insurance companies started to do something new about getting it sent to the lab and then to..

I quickly tell her, that I don't have a PPO anymore, I have an HMO now. They both stop and said "You don't have a PPO???"

After they realize that, my pap test went into the trash. Yep, I was spread eagle for no reason.

Apparently, if you have had all negative paps, then you don't have to come back for 3 years, so I get to come back next year!

After I got dressed, Joy told me that she was having problems figuring out what codes to use because she doesn't want to use something that says that I do have Cushing's, especially if it comes back negative because then the Cushing's dx will always be in my file.

She said that they were going to get into contact with the Endo that the witch lady was going to refer me out to, and see what codes they use, and she'll mail me the lab slip when she knows which ones to use!

Slowly, but surely getting on the right track!

Color Me Rad

I guess I completely missed the last time they came to my city, but I wasn't going to make the same mistake twice! I signed up as soon as it opened! (And got $5 off, lol)

Say hello to team Twisted Ankles!

Not too sure what we're going to be putting on our shirts yet. The race isn't until April 7th, so we have some time.

I am soo excited for this!

Dinner

I have been pushing Justin to plan a lunch or dinner with his co-workers and their girlfriends/wives and he finally did it!

We all met at a Japanese restaurant for teppanyaki (sense a trend here?). I knew going in that Justin's partner Randy, his girlfriend was about 8 months pregnant and that Caesar and his wife have 2 children, with the last one being born just a few months ago.

If I know the company that I'm going to be around, then I can mentally prepare and I did, and I was fine.

And Then...

The conversation goes to pregnancy and all things deliveries and babies. Justin had left to go to the bathroom, leaving me at the table alone. So I just sit there and don't say anything because seriously what can I say? I got nothing.

The rest of the dinner went fine, until the bill came. $105 for just the 2 of us!!! And the food was just okay, I definitely had better elsewhere.

So on the drive home, Justin was asking why I was so quiet and I told him that I had nothing to contribute to their conversations. I thought that he would understand, but he kind of got defensive and said that when he goes out with me and my co-workers and even though we mainly talked work stuff that he would still talk. I told him that they weren't talking about work and then I just shut my mouth, since I knew that it wasn't worth getting into.

I know that he means well, but I think that he forgets sometimes.

Excited for Friday!

Today is CD47 and I have one more birth control pill to take! But I think that I have finally decided that I want to get another tattoo!!!

My first one was done in 2006 and it took me forever to figure out what I wanted exactly. I was in MA school and I found a few Tinkerbell coloring pages online, I printed some out and gave them to some of the girls at school to color for me. Even though it was Tinkerbell, I decided that I wanted her to be more personal to me, and this is what came of it:

So after thinking about, I came across a simple word that makes me think that 2013 will be a great year: Believe. So simple and yet so powerful!

I want to get it on my wrist, so I can see it everyday.

Couldn't hurt, right?

Let me preface and state that my family is Catholic and Italian. My mom was raised by my Nana who was very strict with her and my two aunts. They went to church every week, and my mom and aunts even went to a Catholic school.

So because of my mom's upbring, she is always on the "lookout" for Saints and prays to certain Saints for certain things. With that said, my mom found a Saint for me. His name is Saint Gerard. He is the protector of expectant mothers.

We had to drive across town to find the charm. I went and took the boys for a bathroom break while my mom was getting helped at the counter in the store. My mom told the girl that she wanted the St. Gerard charm and the girl goes, "Okay, that'll be 68..."

And before she can finish, my mom blurts out, "Dollars???!!!"

She then finishes with, "Cents."

So she buys that and also a glass stone with the charm of St. Gerard inside.

She then tells me that I have to wear the charm at all times and to keep the glass stone in my purse. I decided to put the charm on another chain and wear it with my other necklace. But since the two chains kept getting tangled (and Justin calling me "Two Chains"), I just put the charm on the same chain as my first necklace.

My first necklace (a diamond heart) was my Nana's and it has such a significant meaning to me. I put it on for my wedding, and for almost a year (Jan 6th), I have never taken it off. I feel like it keeps me close to her.

So I think that wearing both gives me a fighting chance! (Even though it might look funny)

My Husband, the Comedian

My husband goes through a TON of soda. And to much embarrassment, we never recycled. (I know, I know, but hear me out though)

Once I got laid off, I had to look over our budget and see what our expenses were, where we could cut back on, and what we could put into savings. We are aiming to be able to start looking for our first home probably in March (yay!)

I then realized that we could be saving some money by recycling the soda cans. I even put up a bag and everything! The first week was pretty hard on Justin and I ended up digging cans out of the trash can, which was super fun!

I did catch him the other day, and I told him to take it out of the trash can and put it in the recycling bag because "That's our house fund."

He takes the can out, stops, and then replies, "If this is our house fund, we're in trouble."

Ha Ha, funny man.

I did take our first bag in today, and got $4. Not too horrible.

Instead of buying a piggy bank for $10, I'm using a Tupperware case with a lid. Didn't turn out too bad after I added the picture to the front.

Happy New Year!

 

We spent our New Year's Eve pretty low key. We brought out the bubbly and watched the ball drop. And of course the New Year's kiss!

I should have been happy but I was holding back the tears, thinking about everything that we went through in 2012 and what 2013 holds for us. I just know that 2013 will be better than 2012, because for a lack of a better word, 2012 pretty much sucked balls!

So what have I learned in/from 2012?

1. When dealing with IF, nothing is predictable
2. It is perfectly okay to cry in your car in the parking lot of your Re's after a bad appt
3. Attitude is everything when dealing with IF
4. Even with IF, I am truly happy with my life
5. I couldn't have asked for a better support team of family and friends

And of course getting MARRIED!!!!

I can't really think of any more, but I know that I'm leaving out about 100! Here's to a positive New Year!